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I Wish.

Friday, January 25th, 2013

My ex treated me very poorly, I’m not even going to attempt to sugar coat that, but he had some qualities traits that not a lot of guys have. Maybe that’s why I held on for so long, but that’s not the point. Every time he was here, he always wanted to be with me. Always. My current boyfriend is the best person I have ever met. He is the epitome of perfection, but sometimes I find things that my ex could offer that my boyfriend can not. I’m feeling lonesome right now, and he left my room to go play Black Ops 2 with my thirteen year old sister. In times like this, I think to myself, “I wish you could be like N*** for just three seconds.” But only sometimes. The other times, I find it hard to complain. I love this boy very much.


Always a Disappointment. Always.

Monday, January 21st, 2013

It troubles me greatly when I become excited for my boyfriend to spend the night with me. He can give me the comfort that not a single other person in this world. Then, his mother always says no. There is no harm. What would be wrong with that? I’m curious, honestly, what would be wrong with him sleeping at my house. My mom has never said no. She trusts us. Then, in result of her no, I become exceedingly angry with my boyfriend. It’s not his fault, and I know this. I really do know this. But he is the one who got my hopes up in the first place. Not to mention, the whole point of him being here today was to comfort me. He has probably spent at least 60% of his time with my sister instead. Don’t get me wrong, I love that he has this connection with her that none of my other boyfriends have had, so I try not to complain, but I just wish it could be him and I. And I wish his mother would start treating him like he’s actually 17, instead of 7.